28 weeks.

Today starts the 28th week of this pregnancy. I have had more anxiety than I thought I would leading up to this week. During my pregnancy with Sam and Amelia my water broke during my 28th week and they were born on Day 1 of my 29th week. It was such a surprising, scary, almost numbing time and something I hope never to experience again. You can read ALL about it here in the archives if you wish:)

Anyway, I had a visit with my midwife on Thursday and I was just so weepy all day. I couldn't figure out why (once again, thank you to my mama who took over when I just broke down in the middle of the kitchen for no apparent reason and couldn't seem to pull it back together), but I think it just boiled down to fear. Fear and just wanting so badly for everything to be okay this time.

Now that we are actually here at 28 weeks, though, I feel pretty peaceful. Peaceful and thankful for each day that this baby girl gets to stay inside of me and grow and develop.

So, no break through or anything to write about. I just wanted to write these thoughts down. Remember how I feel. Express thankfulness again for the healthy little ones sleeping in the room next to me and for this babe--such an unexpected and wonderful surprise of a baby.

I know there will probably be more days of weepiness to come, but I hope that for the most part thankfulness continues to rule the day.

Jen